Snape's Worst
Memory
Y ORDER OF THE MINISTRY OF
MAGIC
Dolores Jane Umbridge (High Inquisitor) has replaced
Albus
Dumbledore as Head of Hogwarts School of
Witchcraft and Wizardry.
The
above is in accordance with Educational Decree Number Twenty-eight.
Signed:
Cornelius Oswald Fudge, Minister for Magic
The notices had gone up all around the school overnight, but
they did not explain how every single person within the castle seemed to know
that Dumbledore had overcome two Aurors, the High Inquisitor, the Minister for
Magic and his Junior Assistant to escape. No matter where Harry went within the
castle, the sole topic of conversation was Dumbledore's flight, and though some
of the details may have gone awry in the retelling (Harry overheard one
second-year girl assuring another that Fudge was now lying in St Mungo's with a
pumpkin for a head) it was surprising how accurate the rest of their information
was. Everybody knew, for instance, that Harry and Marietta were the only
students to have witnessed the scene in Dumbledore's office and, as Marietta was
now in the hospital wing, Harry found himself besieged with requests to give a
first-hand account.
“Dumbledore will be back before long,” said Ernie
Macmillan confidently on the way back from Herbology, after listening intently
to Harry's story. “They couldn't keep him away in our second year and they won't
be able to this time. The Fat Friar told me—” he dropped his voice
conspiratorially, so that Harry, Ron and Hermione had to lean closer to him to
hear “—that Umbridge tried to get back into his office last night after they'd
searched the castle and grounds for him. Couldn't get past the gargoyle. The
Head's office has sealed itself against her.” Ernie smirked. “Apparently, she
had a right little tantrum.”
“Oh, I expect she really fancied herself sitting
up there in the Head’s office,” said Hermione viciously, as they walked up the
stone steps into the Entrance Hall. “Lording it over all the other teachers, the
stupid puffed-up, power-crazy old—”
“Now, do you really want to finish that
sentence, Granger?”
Draco Malfoy had slid out from behind the door, closely
followed by Crabbe and Goyle. His pale, pointed face was alight with
malice.
“Afraid I'm going to have to dock a few points from Gryffindor and
Hufflepuff,” he drawled.
“It's only teachers who can dock points from houses,
Malfoy,” said Ernie at once.
“Yeah, we're prefects, too, remember?” snarled
Ron.
“I know prefects can't dock points, Weasel King,” sneered Malfoy. Crabbe
and Goyle sniggered. “But members of the Inquisitorial Squad—”
“The what”
said Hermione sharply.
“The Inquisitorial Squad, Granger,” said Malfoy,
pointing towards a tiny silver “I” on his robes just beneath his prefect's
badge. “A select group of students who are supportive of the Ministry of Magic,
hand-picked by Professor Umbridge. Anyway, members of the Inquisitorial Squad do
have the power to dock points...so, Granger, I'll have five from you for being
rude about our new Headmistress. Macmillan, five for contradicting me. Five
because I don't like you, Potter. Weasley, your shirts untucked, so I'll have
another five for that. Oh yeah, I forgot, you're a Mudblood, Granger, so ten off
for that.”
Ron pulled out his wand, but Hermione pushed it away, whispering,
“Don't!”
“Wise move, Granger,” breathed Malfoy. “New Head, new times ...be
good now, Potty...Weasel King...”
Laughing heartily, he strode away with
Crabbe and Goyle.
“He was bluffing,” said Ernie, looking appalled. “He can't
be allowed to dock points...that would be ridiculous...it would completely
undermine the prefect system.”
But Harry, Ron and Hermione had turned
automatically towards the giant hour-glasses set in niches along the wall behind
them, which recorded the house-points. Gryffindor and Ravenclaw had been neck
and neck in the lead that morning. Even as they watched, stones flew upwards,
reducing the amounts in the lower bulbs. In fact, the only glass that seemed
unchanged was the emerald-filled one of Slytherin.
“Noticed, have you?” said
Fred's voice.
He and George had just come down the marble staircase and
joined Harry, Ron, Hermione and Ernie in front of the hour-glasses.
“Malfoy
just docked us all about fifty points,” said Harry furiously, as they watched
several more stones fly upwards from the Gryffindor hour-glass.
“Yeah,
Montague tried to do us during break,” said George.
“What do you mean,
"tried"?” said Ron quickly.
“He never managed to get all the words out,” said
Fred, “due to the fact that we forced him head-first into that Vanishing Cabinet
on the first floor.”
Hermione looked very shocked.
“But you'll get into
terrible trouble!”
“Not until Montague reappears, and that could take weeks,
I dunno where we sent him,” said Fred coolly. “Anyway...we've decided we don't
care about getting into trouble any more.”
“Have you ever?” asked
Hermione.
“Course we have,” said George. “Never been expelled, have
we?”
“We've always known where to draw the line,” said Fred.
“We might
have put a toe across it occasionally,” said George.
“But we've always
stopped short of causing real mayhem,” said Fred.
“But now?” said Ron
tentatively.
“Well, now—” said George.
“—what with Dumbledore gone—” said
Fred.
“—we reckon a bit of mayhem —” said George.
“— is exactly what our
dear new Head deserves,” said Fred.
“You mustn't!” whispered Hermione. “You
really mustn't! She'd love a reason to expel you!”
“You don't get it,
Hermione, do you?” said Fred, smiling at her. “We don't care about staying any
more. We'd walk out right now if we weren't determined to do our bit for
Dumbledore first. So, anyway,” he checked his watch, “phase one is about to
begin. I'd get in the Great Hall for lunch, if I were you, that way the teachers
will see you can't have had anything to do with it.”
“Anything to do with
what?” said Hermione anxiously.
“You'll see,” said George. “Run along,
now.”
Fred and George turned away and disappeared into the swelling crowd
descending the stairs towards lunch. Looking highly disconcerted, Ernie muttered
something about unfinished Transfiguration homework and scurried away.
“I
think we should get out of here, you know,” said Hermione nervously. “Just in
case”
“Yeah, all right,” said Ron, and the three of them moved towards the
doors to the Great Hall, but Harry had barely glimpsed the day's ceiling of
scudding white clouds when somebody tapped him on the shoulder and, turning, he
found himself almost nose-to-nose with Filch the caretaker. He took several
hasty steps backwards; Filch was best viewed at a distance.
“The Headmistress
would like to see you, Potter,” he leered.
“I didn't do it,” said Harry
stupidly, thinking of whatever Fred and George were planning. Filch's jowls
wobbled with silent laughter.
“Guilty conscience, eh?” he wheezed. “Follow
me.”
Harry glanced back at Ron and Hermione, who were both looking worried.
He shrugged, and followed Filch back into the Entrance Hall, against the tide of
hungry students.
Filch seemed to be in an extremely good mood; he hummed
creakily under his breath as they climbed the marble staircase. As they reached
the first landing he said, “Things are changing around here, Potter.”
“I've
noticed,” said Harry coldly.
“Yerse...I've been telling Dumbledore for years
and years he's too soft with you all,” said Filch, chuckling nastily. “You
filthy little beasts would never have dropped Stink Pellets if you'd known I had
it in my power to whip you raw, would you, now? Nobody would have thought of
throwing Fanged Frisbees down the corridors if I could've strung you up by the
ankles in my office, would they? But when Educational Decree Number Twenty-nine
comes in, Potter, I'll be allowed to do them things...and she's asked the
Minister to sign an order for the expulsion of Peeves...oh, things are going to
be very different around here with her in charge.
Umbridge had obviously gone
to some lengths to get Filch on her side, Harry thought, and the worst of it was
that he would probably prove an important weapon; his knowledge of the school's
secret passageways and hiding places was probably second only to that of the
Weasley twins.
“Here we are,” he said, leering down at Harry as he rapped
three times on Professor Umbridge's door and pushed it open. “The Potter boy to
see you, Ma'am.”
Umbridge's office, so very familiar to Harry from his many
detentions, was the same as usual except for the large wooden block lying across
the front of her desk on which golden letters spelled the word: HEADMISTRESS.
Also, his Firebolt and Fred and George's Cleansweeps, which he saw with a pang,
were chained and padlocked to a stout iron peg in the wall behind the
desk.
Umbridge was sitting behind the desk, busily scribbling on some of her
pink parchment, but she looked up and smiled widely at their entrance.
“Thank
you, Argus,” she said sweetly.
“Not at all, Ma'am, not at all,” said Filch,
bowing as low as his rheumatism would permit, and exiting backwards.
“Sit,”
said Umbridge curtly, pointing towards a chair. Harry sat. She continued to
scribble for a few moments. He watched some of the foul kittens gambolling
around the plates over her head, wondering what fresh horror she had in store
for him.
“Well, now,” she said finally, setting down her quill and surveying
him complacently, like a toad about to swallow a particularly juicy fly. “What
would you like to drink?”
“What?” said Harry, quite sure he had misheard
her.
“To drink, Mr Potter,” she said, smiling still more widely. “Tea?
Coffee? Pumpkin juice?”
As she named each drink, she gave her short wand a
wave, and a cup or glass of it appeared on her desk.
“Nothing, thank you,”
said Harry.
“I wish you to have a drink with me,” she said, her voice
becoming dangerously sweet. “Choose one.”
“Fine...tea then,” said Harry,
shrugging.
She got up and made quite a performance of adding milk with her
back to him. She then bustled around the desk with it, smiling in a sinisterly
sweet fashion.
“There,” she said, handing it to him. “Drink it before it gets
cold, won't you? Well, now, Mr Potter...I thought we ought to have a little
chat, after the distressing events of last night.”
He said nothing. She
settled herself back into her seat and waited. When several long moments had
passed in silence, she said gaily, “You're not drinking up!”
He raised the
cup to his lips and then, just as suddenly, lowered it. One of the horrible
painted kittens behind Umbridge had great round blue eyes just like Mad-Eye
Moody's magical one and it had just occurred to Harry what Mad-Eye would say if
he ever heard that Harry had drunk anything offered by a known enemy.
“What's
the matter?” said Umbridge, who was still watching him closely. “Do you want
sugar?”
“No,” said Harry.
He raised the cup to his lips again and
pretended to take a sip, though keeping his mouth tightly closed. Umbridge's
smile widened.
“Good,” she whispered. “Very good. Now then...” She leaned
forwards a little. “Where is Albus Dumbledore?”
“No idea,” said Harry
promptly.
“Drink up, drink up,” she said, still smiling. “Now, Mr Potter, let
us not play childish games. I know that you know where he has gone. You and
Dumbledore have been in this together from the beginning. Consider your
position, Mr Potter...”
“I don't know where he is,” Harry repeated.
He
pretended to drink again. She was watching him very closely.
“Very well,” she
said, though she looked displeased. “In that case, you will kindly tell me the
whereabouts of Sirius Black.”
Harry's stomach turned over and his hand
holding the teacup shook so that it rattled in its saucer. He tilted the cup to
his mouth with his lips pressed together, so that some of the hot liquid
trickled down on to his robes.
“I don't know,” he said, a little too
quickly.
“Mr Potter,” said Umbridge, “let me remind you that it was I who
almost caught the criminal Black in the Gryffindor fire in October. I know
perfectly well it was you he was meeting and if I had had any proof neither of
you would be at large today, I promise you. I repeat, Mr Potter...where is
Sirius Black?”
“No idea,” said Harry loudly. “Haven't got a clue.”
They
stared at each other so long that Harry felt his eyes watering. Then Umbridge
stood up.
“Very well, Potter, I will take your word for it this time, but be
warned: the might of the Ministry stands behind me. All channels of
communication in and out of this school are being monitored. A Floo Network
Regulator is keeping watch over every fire in Hogwarts—except my own, of course.
My Inquisitorial Squad is opening and reading all owl post entering and leaving
the castle. And Mr Filch is observing all secret passages in and out of the
castle. If I find a shred of evidence...”
BOOM!
The very floor of the
office shook. Umbridge slipped sideways, clutching her desk for support, and
looking shocked.
“What was -?”
She was gazing towards the door. Harry took
the opportunity to empty his almost-full cup of tea into the nearest vase of
dried flowers. He could hear people running and screaming several floors
below.
“Back to lunch you go, Potter!” cried Umbridge, raising her wand and
dashing out of the office. Harry gave her a few seconds’ start, then hurried
after her to see what the source of all the uproar was.
It was not difficult
to find. One floor down, pandemonium reigned. Somebody (and Harry had a very
shrewd idea who) had set off what seemed to be an enormous crate of enchanted
fireworks.
Dragons comprised entirely of green and gold sparks were soaring
up and down the corridors, emitting loud fiery blasts and bangs as they went;
shocking-pink Catherine wheels five feet in diameter were whizzing lethally
through the air like so many flying saucers; rockets with long tails of
brilliant silver stars were ricocheting off the walls; sparklers were writing
swear words in midair of their own accord; firecrackers were exploding like
mines everywhere Harry looked, and instead of burning themselves out, fading
from sight or fizzling to a halt, these pyrotechnical miracles seemed to be
gaining in energy and momentum the longer he watched.
Filch and Umbridge were
standing, apparently transfixed in horror, halfway down the stairs. As Harry
watched, one of the larger Catherine wheels seemed to decide that what it needed
was more room to manoeuvre; it whirled towards Umbridge and Filch with a
sinister “wheeeeeeeeee”. They both yelled with fright and ducked, and it soared
straight out of the window behind them and off across the grounds. Meanwhile,
several of the dragons and a large purple bat that was smoking ominously took
advantage of the open door at the end of the corridor to escape towards the
second floor.
“Hurry, Filch, hurry!” shrieked Umbridge, “they'll be all over
the school unless we do something—Stupefy!”
A jet of red light shot out of
the end of her wand and hit one of the rockets. Instead of freezing in midair,
it exploded with such force that it blasted a hole in a painting of a
soppy-looking witch in the middle of a meadow; she ran for it just in time,
reappearing seconds later squashed into the next painting, where a couple of
wizards playing cards stood up hastily to make room for her.
“Don't Stun
them, Filch!” shouted Umbridge angrily, for all the world as though it had been
his incantation.
“Right you are, Headmistress!” wheezed Filch, who as a Squib
could no more have Stunned the fireworks than swallowed them. He dashed to a
nearby cupboard, pulled out a broom and began swatting at the fireworks in
midair; within seconds the head of the broom was ablaze.
Harry had seen
enough; laughing, he ducked down low, ran to a door he knew was concealed behind
a tapestry a little way along the corridor and slipped through it to find Fred
and George hiding just behind it, listening to Umbridge and Filch's yells and
quaking with suppressed mirth.
“Impressive,” Harry said quietly, grinning.
“Very impressive...you'll put Dr Filibuster out of business, no
problem...”
“Cheers,” whispered George, wiping tears of laughter from his
face. “Oh, I hope she tries Vanishing them next...they multiply by ten every
time you try.”
The fireworks continued to burn and to spread all over the
school that afternoon. Though they caused plenty of disruption, particularly the
firecrackers, the other teachers didn't seem to mind them very much.
“Dear,
dear,” said Professor McGonagall sardonically, as one of the dragons soared
around her classroom, emitting loud bangs and exhaling flame. “Miss Brown, would
you mind running along to the Headmistress and informing her that we have an
escaped firework in our classroom?”
The upshot of it all was that Professor
Umbridge spent her first afternoon as Headmistress running all over the school
answering the summonses of the other teachers, none of whom seemed able to rid
their rooms of the fireworks without her. When the final bell rang and they were
heading back to Gryffindor Tower with their bags, Harry saw, with immense
satisfaction, a dishevelled and soot-blackened Umbridge tottering sweaty-faced
from Professor Flitwick's classroom.
“Thank you so much, Professor!” said
Professor Flitwick in his squeaky little voice. “I could have got rid of the
sparklers myself, of course, but I wasn't sure whether or not I had the
authority.”
Beaming, he closed his classroom door in her snarling
face.
Fred and George were heroes that night in the Gryffindor common room.
Even Hermione fought her way through the excited crowd to congratulate
them.
“They were wonderful fireworks,” she said admiringly.
“Thanks,” said
George, looking both surprised and pleased. “Weasleys” Wildfire Whiz-bangs. Only
thing is, we used our whole stock; we're going to have to start again from
scratch now.”
“It was worth it, though,” said Fred, who was taking orders
from clamouring Gryffindors. “If you want to add your name to the waiting list,
Hermione, it's five Galleons for your Basic Blaze box and twenty for the
Deflagration Deluxe...”
Hermione returned to the table where Harry and Ron
were sitting staring at their schoolbags as though hoping their homework would
spring out and start doing itself.
“Oh, why don't we have a night off?” said
Hermione brightly, as a silver-tailed Weasley rocket zoomed past the window.
“After all, the Easter holidays start on Friday, we'll have plenty of time
then.”
“Are you feeling all right?” Ron asked, staring at her in
disbelief.
“Now you mention it,” said Hermione happily, “d'you know...I think
I'm feeling a bit...rebellious.”
Harry could still hear the distant bangs of
escaped firecrackers when he and Ron went up to bed an hour later; and as he got
undressed a sparkler floated past the tower, still resolutely spelling out the
word “TOO”.
He got into bed, yawning. With his glasses off, the occasional
firework passing the window had become blurred, looking like sparkling clouds,
beautiful and mysterious against the black sky. He turned on to his side,
wondering how Umbridge was feeling about her first day in Dumbledore's job, and
how Fudge would react when he heard that the school had spent most of the day in
a state of advanced disruption. Smiling to himself, Harry closed his
eyes...
The whizzes and bangs of escaped fireworks in the grounds seemed to
be growing more distant...or perhaps he was simply speeding away from
them...
He had fallen right into the corridor leading to the Department of
Mysteries. He was speeding towards the plain black door...let it open...let it
open...
It did. He was inside the circular room lined with doors...he crossed
it, placed his hand on an identical door and it swung inwards...
Now he was
in a long, rectangular room full of an odd mechanical clicking. There were
dancing flecks of light on the walls but he did not pause to investigate...he
had to go on...
There was a door at the far end...it, too, opened at his
touch...
And now he was in a dimly lit room as high and wide as a church,
full of nothing but rows and rows of towering shelves, each laden with small,
dusty, spun-glass spheres...now Harry’s heart was beating fast with
excitement...he knew where to go...he ran forwards, but his footsteps made no
noise in the enormous, deserted room...
There was something in this room he
wanted very, very much...
Something he wanted...or somebody else
wanted...
His scar was hurting...
BANG!
Harry awoke instantly, confused
and angry. The dark dormitory was full of the sound of laughter.
“Cool!” said
Seamus, who was silhouetted against the window. “I think one of those Catherine
wheels hit a rocket and it's like they mated, come and see!”
Harry heard Ron
and Dean scramble out of bed for a better look. He lay quite still and silent
while the pain in his scar subsided and disappointment washed over him. He felt
as though a wonderful treat had been snatched from him at the very last
moment...he had got so close that time.
Glittering pink and silver winged
piglets were now soaring past the windows of Gryffindor Tower. Harry lay and
listened to the appreciative whoops of Gryffindors in the dormitories below
them. His stomach gave a sickening jolt as he remembered that he had Occlumency
the following evening.
***
Harry spent the whole of the next day dreading
what Snape was going to say if he found out how much further into the Department
of Mysteries. Harry had penetrated during his last dream. With a surge of guilt
he realised that he had not practised Occlumency once since their last lesson:
there had been too much going on since Dumbledore had left; he was sure he would
not have been able to empty his mind even if he had tried. He doubted, however,
whether Snape would accept that excuse.
He attempted a little last-minute
practice during classes that day, but it was no good. Hermione kept asking him
what was wrong whenever he fell silent trying to rid himself of all thought and
emotion and, after all, the best moment to empty his brain was not while
teachers were firing revision questions at the class.
Resigned to the worst,
he set off for Snape's office after dinner. Halfway across the Entrance Hall,
however, Cho came hurrying up to him.
“Over here,” said Harry, glad of a
reason to postpone his meeting with Snape, and beckoning her across to the
corner of the Entrance Hall where the giant hour-glasses stood. Gryffindor's was
now almost empty. “Are you OK? Umbridge hasn't been asking you about the DA, has
she?”
“Oh, no,” said Cho hurriedly. “No, it was only...well, I just wanted to
say...Harry, I never dreamed Marietta would tell...”
“Yeah, well,” said Harry
moodily. He did feel Cho might have chosen her friends a bit more carefully; it
was small consolation that the last he had heard, Marietta was still up in the
hospital wing and Madam Pomfrey had not been able to make the slightest
improvement to her pimples.
“She's a lovely person really,” said Cho. “She
just made a mistake—”
Harry looked at her incredulously.
“A lovely person
who made a mistake? She sold us all out, including you!”
“Well...we all got
away, didn't we?” said Cho pleadingly. “You know, her mum works for the
Ministry, it's really difficult for her—”
“Ron's dad works for the Ministry
too!” Harry said furiously. “And in case you hadn't noticed, he hasn't got sneak
written across his face—”
T”hat was a really horrible trick of Hermione
Granger's,” said Cho fiercely. “She should have told us she'd jinxed that
list—”
“I think it was a brilliant idea,” said Harry coldly. Cho flushed and
her eyes grew brighter.
“Oh yes, I forgot—of course, if it was darling
Hermione's idea—”
“Don't start crying again,” said Harry warningly.
“I
wasn't going to!” she shouted.
“Yeah...well...good,” he said. “I've got
enough to cope with at the moment.”
“Go and cope with it then!” Cho said
furiously, turning on her heel and stalking off.
Fuming, Harry descended the
stairs to Snape's dungeon and, though he knew from experience how much easier it
would be for Snape to penetrate his mind if he arrived angry and resentful, he
succeeded in nothing but thinking of a few more things he should have said to
Cho about Marietta before reaching the dungeon door.
“You're late, Potter,”
said Snape coldly, as Harry closed the door behind him.
Snape was standing
with his back to Harry, removing, as usual, certain of his thoughts and placing
them carefully in Dumbledores Pensieve. He dropped the last silvery strand into
the stone basin and turned to face Harry.
“So,” he said. “Have you been
practising?”
“Yes,” Harry lied, looking carefully at one of the legs of
Snape's desk.
“Well, we'll soon find out, won't we?” said Snape smoothly.
“Wand out, Potter.”
Harry moved into his usual position, facing Snape with
the desk between them. His heart was pumping fast with anger at Cho and anxiety
about how much Snape was about to extract from his mind.
“On the count of
three then,” said Snape lazily. “One—two—”
Snape's office door banged open
and Draco Malfoy sped in.
“Professor Snape, sir—oh—sorry—”
Malfoy was
looking at Snape and Harry in some surprise.
“It's all right, Draco,” said
Snape, lowering his wand. “Potter is here for a little remedial
Potions.”
Harry had not seen Malfoy look so gleeful since Umbridge had turned
up to inspect Hagrid.
“I didn't know,” he said, leering at Harry, who knew
his face was burning. He would have given a great deal to be able to shout the
truth at Malfoy—or, even better, to hit him with a good curse.
“Well, Draco,
what is it?” asked Snape.
“It's Professor Umbridge, sir—she needs your help,”
said Malfoy.
“They've found Montague, sir, he's turned up jammed inside a
toilet on the fourth floor.”
“How did he get in there?” demanded Snape.
“I
don't know, sir, he's a bit confused.”
“Very well, very well. Potter,” said
Snape, “we shall resume this lesson tomorrow evening.”
He turned and swept
from his office. Malfoy mouthed, “Remedial Potions?” at Harry behind Snape's
back before following him.
Seething, Harry replaced his wand inside his robes
and made to leave the room. At least he had twenty-four more hours in which to
practise; he knew he ought to feel grateful for the narrow escape, though it was
hard that it came at the expense of Malfoy telling the whole school that he
needed remedial Potions.
He was at the office door when he saw it: a patch of
shivering light dancing on the doorframe. He stopped, and stood looking at it,
reminded of something...then he remembered: it was a little like the lights he
had seen in his dream last night, the lights in the second room he had walked
through on his journey through the Department of Mysteries.
He turned around.
The light was coming from the Pensieve sitting on Snape's desk. The silver-white
contents were ebbing and swirling within. Snape's thoughts...things he did not
want Harry to see if he broke through Snape's defences accidentally...
Harry
gazed at the Pensieve, curiosity welling inside him...what was it that Snape was
so keen to hide from Harry?
The silvery lights shivered on the wall...Harry
took two steps towards the desk, thinking hard. Could it possibly be information
about the Department of Mysteries that Snape was determined to keep from
him?
Harry looked over his shoulder, his heart now pumping harder and faster
than ever. How long would it take Snape to release Montague from the toilet?
Would he come straight back to his office afterwards, or accompany Montague to
the hospital wing? Surely the latter...Montague was Captain of the Slytherin
Quidditch team, Snape would want to make sure he was all right.
Harry walked
the remaining few feet to the Pensieve and stood over it, gazing into its
depths. He hesitated, listening, then pulled out his wand again. The office and
the corridor beyond were completely silent. He gave the contents of the Pensieve
a small prod with the end of his wand.
The silvery stuff within began to
swirl very fast. Harry leaned forwards over it and saw that it had become
transparent. He was, once again, looking down into a room as though through a
circular window in the ceiling...in fact, unless he was much mistaken, he was
looking down into the Great Hall.
His breath was actually fogging the surface
of Snape's thoughts...his brain seemed to be in limbo...it would be insane to do
the thing he was so strongly tempted to do...he was trembling...Snape could be
back at any moment...but Harry thought of Cho’s anger, of Malfoy's jeering face,
and a reckless daring seized him.
He took a great gulp of breath, and plunged
his face into the surface of Snape's thoughts. At once, the floor of the office
lurched, tipping Harry head-first into the Pensieve...
He was falling through
cold blackness, spinning furiously as he went, and then—
He was standing in
the middle of the Great Hall, but the four house tables were gone. Instead,
there were more than a hundred smaller tables, all facing the same way, at each
of which sat a student, head bent low, scribbling on a roll of parchment. The
only sound was the scratching of quills and the occasional rustle as somebody
adjusted their parchment. It was clearly exam time.
Sunshine was streaming
through the high windows on to the bent heads, which shone chestnut and copper
and gold in the bright light. Harry looked around carefully. Snape had to be
here somewhere...this was his memory...
And there he was, at a table right
behind Harry. Harry stared. Snape-the-teenager had a stringy, pallid look about
him, like a plant kept in the dark. His hair was lank and greasy and was
flopping on to the table, his hooked nose barely half an inch from the surface
of the parchment as he scribbled. Harry moved around behind Snape and read the
heading of the examination paper: DEFENCE AGAINST THE DARK ARTS—ORDINARY
WIZARDING LEVEL.
So Snape had to be fifteen or sixteen, around Harry's own
age. His hand was flying across the parchment; he had written at least a foot
more than his closest neighbours, and yet his writing was minuscule and
cramped.
“Five more minutes!”
The voice made Harry jump. Turning, he saw
the top of Professor Flitwick's head moving between the desks a short distance
away. Professor Flitwick was walking past a boy with untidy black hair...very
untidy black hair...
Harry moved so quickly that, had he been solid, he would
have knocked desks flying. Instead he seemed to slide, dreamlike, across two
aisles and up a third. The back of the black-haired boy's head drew nearer
and...he was straightening up now, putting down his quill, pulling his roll of
parchment towards him so as to reread what he had written...
Harry stopped in
front of the desk and gazed down at his fifteen-year-old father.
Excitement
exploded in the pit of his stomach: it was as though he was looking at himself
but with deliberate mistakes. James's eyes were hazel, his nose was slightly
longer than Harry's and there was no scar on his forehead, but they had the same
thin face, same mouth, same eyebrows; James's hair stuck up at the back exactly
as Harry's did, his hands could have been Harry's and Harry could tell that,
when James stood up, they would be within an inch of each other in
height.
James yawned hugely and rumpled up his hair, making it even messier
than it had been. Then, with a glance towards Professor Flitwick, he turned in
his seat and grinned at a boy sitting four seats behind him.
With another
shock of excitement, Harry saw Sirius give James the thumbs-up. Sirius was
lounging in his chair at his ease, tilting it back on two legs. He was very
good-looking; his dark hair fell into his eyes with a sort of casual elegance
neither James's nor Harry's could ever have achieved, and a girl sitting behind
him was eyeing him hopefully, though he didn't seem to have noticed. And two
seats along from this girl—Harry's stomach gave another pleasurable squirm—was
Remus Lupin. He looked rather pale and peaky (was the full moon approaching?)
and was absorbed in the exam: as he reread his answers, he scratched his chin
with the end of his quill, frowning slightly.
So that meant Wormtail had to
be around here somewhere, too...and sure enough, Harry spotted him within
seconds: a small, mousy-haired boy with a pointed nose. Wormtail looked anxious;
he was chewing his fingernails, staring down at his paper, scuffing the ground
with his toes. Every now and then he glanced hopefully at his neighbours paper.
Harry stared at Wormtail for a moment, then back at James, who was now doodling
on a bit of scrap parchment. He had drawn a Snitch and was now tracing the
letters “L.E.”. What did they stand for?
“Quills down, please!” squeaked
Professor Flitwick. “That means you too, Stebbins! Please remain seated while I
collect your parchment! Accio!”
Over a hundred rolls of parchment zoomed into
the air and into Professor Flitwick's outstretched arms, knocking him backwards
off his feet. Several people laughed. A couple of students at the front desks
got up, took hold of Professor Flitwick beneath the elbows and lifted him back
on to his feet.
“Thank you...thank you,” panted Professor Flitwick. “Very
well, everybody, you're free to go!”
Harry looked down at his father, who had
hastily crossed out the “L.E.” he had been embellishing, jumped to his feet,
stuffed his quill and the exam paper into his bag, which he slung over his back,
and stood waiting for Sirius to join him.
Harry looked around and glimpsed
Snape a short way away, moving between the tables towards the doors to the
Entrance Hall, still absorbed in his own exam paper. Round-shouldered yet
angular, he walked in a twitchy manner that recalled a spider, and his oily hair
was jumping about his face.
A gang of chattering girls separated Snape from
James, Sirius and Lupin, and by planting himself in their midst, Harry managed
to keep Snape in sight while straining his ears to catch the voices of James and
his friends.
“Did you like question ten, Moony?” asked Sirius as they emerged
into the Entrance Hall.
“Loved it,” said Lupin briskly. “Give five signs that
identify the werewolf. Excellent question.”
“D'you think you managed to get
all the signs?” said James in tones of mock concern.
“Think I did,” said
Lupin seriously, as they joined the crowd thronging around the front doors eager
to get out into the sunlit grounds. “One: he's sitting on my chair. Two: he's
wearing my clothes. Three: his name's Remus Lupin.”
Wormtail was the only one
who didn't laugh.
“I got the snout shape, the pupils of the eyes and the
tufted tail,” he said anxiously, “but I couldn't think what else—”
“How thick
are you, Wormtail?” said James impatiently. “You run round with a werewolf once
a month—”
“Keep your voice down,” implored Lupin.
Harry looked anxiously
behind him again. Snape remained close by, still buried in his exam
questions—but this was Snape's memory and Harry was sure that if Snape chose to
wander off in a different direction once outside in the grounds, he, Harry,
would not be able to follow James any further. To his intense relief, however,
when James and his three friends strode off down the lawn towards the lake,
Snape followed, still poring over the exam paper and apparently with no fixed
idea of where he was going. By keeping a little ahead of him, Harry managed to
maintain a close watch on James and the others.
“Well, I thought that paper
was a piece of cake,” he heard Sirius say. “Til be surprised if I don't get
"Outstanding" on it at least.”
“Me too,” said James. He put his hand in his
pocket and took out a struggling Golden Snitch.
“Where'd you get
that?”
“Nicked it,” said James casually. He started playing with the Snitch,
allowing it to fly as much as a foot away before seizing it again; his reflexes
were excellent. Wormtail watched him in awe.
They stopped in the shade of the
very same beech tree on the edge of the lake where Harry, Ron and Hermione had
once spent a Sunday finishing their homework, and threw themselves down on the
grass. Harry looked over his shoulder yet again and saw, to his delight, that
Snape had settled himself on the grass in the dense shadow of a clump of bushes.
He was as deeply immersed in the OWL paper as ever, which left Harry free to sit
down on the grass between the beech and the bushes and watch the foursome under
the tree. The sunlight was dazzling on the smooth surface of the lake, on the
bank of which the group of laughing girls who had just left the Great Hall were
sitting, with their shoes and socks off, cooling their feet in the
water.
Lupin had pulled out a book and was reading. Sirius stared around at
the students milling over the grass, looking rather haughty and bored, but very
handsomely so. James was still playing with the Snitch, letting it zoom further
and further away, almost escaping but always grabbed at the last second.
Wormtail was watching him with his mouth open. Every time James made a
particularly difficult catch, Wormtail gasped and applauded. After five minutes
of this, Harry wondered why James didn't tell Wormtail to get a grip on himself,
but James seemed to be enjoying the attention. Harry noticed that his father had
a habit of rumpling up his hair as though to keep it from getting too tidy, and
he also kept looking over at the girls by the water's edge.
“Tut that away,
will you,” said Sirius finally, as James made a fine catch and Wormtail let out
a cheer, “before Wormtail wets himself with excitement.”
Wormtail turned
slightly pink, but James grinned.
“If it bothers you,” he said, stuffing the
Snitch back in his pocket. Harry had the distinct impression that Sirius was the
only one for whom James would have stopped showing off.
“I'm bored,” said
Sirius. “Wish it was full moon.”
“You might,” said Lupin darkly from behind
his book. “We've still got Transfiguration, if you're bored you could test me.
Here..." and he held out his book.
But Sirius snorted. “I don't need to look
at that rubbish, I know it all.”
“This'll liven you up, Padfoot,” said James
quietly. “Look who it is...”
Sirius's head turned. He became very still, like
a dog that has scented a rabbit.
“Excellent,” he said softly.
“Snivellus.”
Harry turned to see what Sirius was looking at.
Snape was on
his feet again, and was stowing the OWL paper in his bag. As he left the shadows
of the bushes and set off across the grass, Sirius and James stood up.
Lupin
and Wormtail remained sitting: Lupin was still staring down at his book, though
his eyes were not moving and a faint frown line had appeared between his
eyebrows; Wormtail was looking from Sirius and James to Snape with a look of
avid anticipation on his face.
“All right, Snivellus?” said James
loudly.
Snape reacted so fast it was as though he had been expecting an
attack: dropping his bag, he plunged his hand inside his robes and his wand was
halfway into the air when James shouted, “Expelliarmus!”
Snape's wand flew
twelve feet into the air and fell with a little thud in the grass behind him.
Sirius let out a bark of laughter.
“Impedimenta!” he said, pointing his wand
at Snape, who was knocked off his feet halfway through a dive towards his own
fallen wand.
Students all around had turned to watch. Some of them had got to
their feet and were edging nearer. Some looked apprehensive, others
entertained.
Snape lay panting on the ground. James and Sirius advanced on
him, wands raised, James glancing over his shoulder at the girls at the water's
edge as he went. Wormtail was on his feet now, watching hungrily, edging around
Lupin to get a clearer view.
“How'd the exam go, Snivelly?” said James.
“I
was watching him, his nose was touching the parchment,” said Sirius viciously.
“There'll be great grease marks all over it, they won't be able to read a
word.”
Several people watching laughed; Snape was clearly unpopular. Wormtail
sniggered shrilly. Snape was trying to get up, but the jinx was still operating
on him; he was struggling, as though bound by invisible ropes.
“You—wait,” he
panted, staring up at James with an expression of purest loathing,
“you—wait!”
“Wait for what?” said Sirius coolly. “What're you going to do,
Snivelly, wipe your nose on us?”
Snape let out a stream of mixed swear words
and hexes, but with his wand ten feet away nothing happened.
“Wash out your
mouth,” said James coldly. “Scourgify!”
Pink soap bubbles streamed from
Snape's mouth at once; the froth was covering his lips, making him gag, choking
him—
“Leave him ALONE!”
James and Sirius looked round. James's free hand
immediately jumped to his hair.
It was one of the girls from the lake edge.
She had thick, dark red hair that fell to her shoulders, and startlingly green
almond-shaped eyes—Harry's eyes.
Harry's mother.
“All right, Evans?” said
James, and the tone of his voice was suddenly pleasant, deeper, more
mature.
“Leave him alone,” Lily repeated. She was looking at James with every
sign of great dislike. “What's he done to you?”
“Well,” said James, appearing
to deliberate the point, “it's more the fact that he exists, if you know what I
mean...”
Many of the surrounding students laughed, Sirius and Wormtail
included, but Lupin, still apparently intent on his book, didn't, and nor did
Lily.
“You think you're funny,” she said coldly. “But you're just an
arrogant, bullying toerag, Potter. Leave him alone.”
“I will if you go out
with me, Evans,” said James quickly. “Go on...go out with me and I'll never lay
a wand on old Snivelly again.”
Behind him, the Impediment Jinx was wearing
off. Snape was beginning to inch towards his fallen wand, spitting out soapsuds
as he crawled.
“I wouldn't go out with you if it was a choice between you and
the giant squid,” said Lily.
“Bad luck, Prongs,” said Sirius briskly, and
turned back to Snape. “OI!”
But too late; Snape had directed his wand
straight at James; there was a flash of light and a gash appeared on the side of
James's face, spattering his robes with blood. James whirled about: a second
flash of light later, Snape was hanging upside-down in the air, his robes
falling over his head to reveal skinny, pallid legs and a pair of greying
underpants.
Many people in the small crowd cheered; Sirius, James and
Wormtail roared with laughter.
Lily, whose furious expression had twitched
for an instant as though she was going to smile, said, “Let him
down!”
“Certainly,” said James and he jerked his wand upwards; Snape fell
into a crumpled heap on the ground. Disentangling himself from his robes he got
quickly to his feet, wand up, but Sirius said, “Petrificus Totalus!” and Snape
keeled over again, rigid as a board.
“LEAVE HIM ALONE!” Lily shouted. She had
her own wand out now. James and Sirius eyed it warily.
“Ah, Evans, don't make
me hex you,” said James earnestly.
“Take the curse off him, then!”
James
sighed deeply, then turned to Snape and muttered the counter-curse.
“There
you go,” he said, as Snape struggled to his feet. “You're lucky Evans was here,
Snivellus —”
“I don't need help from filthy little Mudbloods like
her!”
Lily blinked.
“Fine,” she said coolly. “I won't bother in future.
And I'd wash your pants if I were you, Snivellus.”
“Apologise to Evans!”
James roared at Snape, his wand pointed threateningly at him.
“I don't want
you to make him apologise,” Lily shouted, rounding on James. “You're as bad as
he is.”
“What?” yelped James. “I'd NEVER call you
a—you-know-what!”
“Messing up your hair because you think it looks cool to
look like you've just got off your broomstick, showing off with that stupid
Snitch, walking down corridors and hexing anyone who annoys you just because you
can—I'm surprised your broomstick can get off the ground with that fat head on
it. You make me SICK.”
She turned on her heel and hurried away.
“Evans!”
James shouted after her. “Hey, EVANS!”
But she didn't look back.
“What is
it with her?” said James, trying and failing to look as though this was a
throwaway question of no real importance to him.
“Reading between the lines,
I'd say she thinks you're a bit conceited, mate,” said Sirius.
“Right,” said
James, who looked furious now, “right—”
There was another flash of light, and
Snape was once again hanging upside-down in the air.
“Who wants to see me
take off Snivelly's pants?”
But whether James really did take off Snapes
pants, Harry never found out. A hand had closed tight over his upper arm, closed
with a pincer-like grip. Wincing, Harry looked round to see who had hold of him,
and saw, with a thrill of horror, a fully grown, adult-sized Snape standing
right beside him, white with rage.
“Having fun?”
Harry felt himself rising
into the air; the summer's day evaporated around him; he was floating upwards
through icy blackness, Snape's hand still tight upon his upper arm. Then, with a
swooping feeling as though he had turned head-over-heels in midair, his feet hit
the stone floor of Snape's dungeon and he was standing again beside the Pensieve
on Snape's desk in the shadowy, present-day Potion masters study.
“So,” said
Snape, gripping Harry's arm so tightly Harry's hand was starting to feel numb.
“So...been enjoying yourself, Potter?”
“N-no,” said Harry, trying to free his
arm.
It was scary: Snape's lips were shaking, his face was white, his teeth
were bared.
“Amusing man, your father, wasn't he?” said Snape, shaking Harry
so hard his glasses slipped down his nose.
“I—didn't—”
Snape threw Harry
from him with all his might. Harry fell hard on to the dungeon floor.
“You
will not repeat what you saw to anybody!” Snape bellowed.
“No,” said Harry,
getting to his feet as far from Snape as he could. “No, of course I w—”
“Get
out, get out, I don't want to see you in this office ever again!”
And as
Harry hurtled towards the door, a jar of dead cockroaches exploded over his
head. He wrenched the door open and flew along the corridor, stopping only when
he had put three floors between himself and Snape. There he leaned against the
wall, panting, and rubbing his bruised arm.
He had no desire at all to return
to Gryffindor Tower so early, nor to tell Ron and Hermione what he had just
seen. What was making Harry feel so horrified and unhappy was not being shouted
at or having jars thrown at him; it was that he knew how it felt to be
humiliated in the middle of a circle of onlookers, knew exactly how Snape had
felt as his father had taunted him, and that judging from what he had just seen,
his father had been every bit as arrogant as Snape had always told him.
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